I keep second-guessing
I keep double-checking
I keep making sure it is his will.

And in that, I delay
In that, I waste time
In that, I disbelieve him.

I don’t want a whim
I don’t want an impulse
I don’t want to hear the wrong thing.

Yet obedience means right now
Obedience means immediately
Obedience means as soon as you can.

No questions.
No ifs.
No doubts.

Am I too fearful of making a mistake?
Am I too scared to jump out on a branch?
Am I too worried that I will fall?

I know of his strength.
I know of his faithfulness.
I know he is right every time.

All I must do is trust.
For I need to believe that
The voice in my head
Is “not just me”

BECAUSE I COULD NEVER THINK
OF ANY OF THE THINGS
HE ALWAYS TELL ME TO DO.
And I have to realize that
The fruit of this relationship
Is him telling me to do crazy things.
And I do hear his voice.
I hear, I hear, I hear.
Let me not delay.

Let me act.
Let me go.
Let me love.